Kawther Salam's Diary 

Hell Made in Israel (2/7/02)

The Daily Life of Kawther Salam

10 o'clock at the morning, I started my day. I held a meeting with my fiend, the TV Researcher " Tall " . We went together to a small cafe to have a drink. She reminds me when we were working together in Hebron, and the Jewish settler with long beard, stopped his car in the mid of Al-Shuhada street, in front of the IDF soldiers and he tried to kidnap us in his car!! O' Tall it was a bad memory!! Why you remind me of this??

We talked together about my financial situation, the travel permit I need to access Ben Gorion Airport. We talked about the political situation, and how we can help to find solution!!

I said, " we need to open a " Human Rights University " , and teach our people the Human Rights Culture, this is the only solution to solve our problems " . " But it will take us long time unless we build this University!! Yes, I don't have money just " 50 sheql " , to start this active project, I need an Israeli permit too. And maybe it will take me the rest of my life fighting for this project and I will get refuse at the end!!

No. No, I should fight for travel permit to leave this area before, and if I I return I will fight for my new project, " the Human Rights University " !! "

" Yes, it took me long time requesting the Israelis to grant me a travel permit to access Ben Gurion Airport, and I still waiting " !! " So, I should find a solution for our " Political " problem first!! Then, maybe I have A travel permit to access Ben Gurion Airport!! I said, " yes Tall I have another idea for this " !!

Tall said, " yes please, go head and help us Kawther!!

I said, we should have one State here, this area is very small for two States.

We must have a civilize and develop State, with mixed culture and people, the same as the US state. We must run to the " Election " and vote, we must decide who will be the " President " of this State, " Kawther or Tall " . I don't care if " Tall " , " Sharon " or " Arafat " , will be the winner through this " Election " .

I will not be sad, if it will be a " Jewish State " , with mixed people, Palestinians, Jewish or ..., Just enough to vote and decide in a " Democratic " way our future, far a way of this " Bloody War " !! We have enough land for every body to live!! We don't need to kill each other!!

Yes, Tall, " Enough is Enough " !!

I hate the " WAR " , I hate killing our innocent people for political reasons!! We must " Vote " right now and decide, then we can lead the all Middle East!! We can lead all the Arab countries, lead the Middle East " Economic " , We will be more strong, more ...and more!!

Yes " Tall " , we will have one State, one " LAW " !! We will have the same rights!! We will put the end of the occupation!! This is the only " Just " and solution Tall!!

You are " Optimistic " , Kawther, Tall said!!

I asked why, we should survive dear, It's not " Justice " to leave the " Jewish " , live in a closed " Ghetto " alone, it's not " Justice " to live the Palestinians live in another close " Ghetto " !! It's not " Justice " , to have a State with one colure!! Why we don't live like all the human beings in Europe and the State!! I'm just trying to find solution for this complicated political conflict without killing each other!!

We must respect our " Humanity " , our blood, and creation!! I'm just finding the last solution for ever in this area. It's just one " Democratic State " with different colors!! Then you can live in Hebron, and I can live in Tel-Aviv without problems, it will be my decision and my decision at the end dear!!

Yes, this is the only option we can live together and survive, I agree with you Kawther, Tall said!!

So, what's the problem now my dear " Tall " ?? It's your permit to access Ben Gurion airport Kawther. Then we will build this State, like it is??!!

So, how we can help your government to think and grant this permit for me " Tall " ??

It's big complicated problem in this " Civilized and Democratic " Country, the " State of Israel " !!

We must ask " Shas " for a help Kawther!! This is the only option!! The extreme people lead my government today!! We obliged to deal with them!! There is no need to fall in love with them!!

Yes, for sure I don't like them!! But we need to respect each other Kawther!!

Yes, Yes please " Tall " , let us try very quickly!! But do you think that there is somebody in Israel still have a " Human " heart and mind?? All what I need to get out of this situation, I can't survive any more here!!

I can't survive in the mid of the occupation!!

I can't survive and live with the IDF soldiers!!

I can't see the blood any more, I'm scared of death and killing!!

I can't survive living illegal in Israel!!

I can't live without money here!!

I can't live in the mid of the " Traditional Men Society " in the West Bank!!

I can't make reverse and give up!!

I can't return!!

I should leave, I should have access permit. This is all what I need!!

Do you think it is a big deal and problem??!!